Friday, January 27, 2012

"Have you ever loved somebody so much, it made you cry..?" Thanks Brandy. I'm sure everybody's been in "love" or real, true, shake you to your bones, kind of love. Everybody has felt some sort of strange excitement for someone else, whether it bloomed into love or not. Did you love them so much that you cried happy tears? or did you cry because you've realized that maybe the timing isn't quite right and even though you truly love them, maybe it's just not meant to be? Either way, love is tough.

I have a friend.. not just saying that to hide my identity.. I really do have a friend who is in a tough position in her life. She married an amazing man - her words, not mine. But he is a good guy. He treats her right, loves her unconditionally, is a great provider and a great father to their kids. The problem is, even though she loves him, she's realizing that maybe the timing just isn't right. Is that possible? The last few years have been a whirlwind for them. They've celebrated a lot of big life experience in a short amount of time and since things have calmed down, she's realizing that maybe they did a little too much too fast. She feels lost within the relationship and is unsure of what type of relationship she now has with herself. Her youth is passing her by and she isn't happy enough to be taking advantage of it. What does she do? Any mention of independence is going to send her husband into a world of self pity where he begins to feel inadequate and unloved. It would break her family apart. What would that do to their young kids? She's yearning to take a break and re-access who she is and what she wants, but does a break mean a break up?

After a woman gets married, is it possible for her to take a break from the relationship for herself, or is that selfish and now she's doomed to put herself aside for the next x amount of years... ? Does being a mom and wife really mean that you have to take yourself off the priority list?

Friday, January 20, 2012

"I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life's a bitch. You've got to go out and kick ass" -- Maya Angelou

I've realized that life is not perfect. It's not going to be perfect. As long as you stay focused on the blessings that you have, you can create your perfect happiness. At 23, it's difficult for me to believe that I live the lifestyle of a 30-something year old. There are days when I feel like I've lost my youth, days where I feel like an old, ugly hag of a woman who will never get her body back, and days where I just want to lay on the couch all day because I feel 'stuck.' Then those days go away. They're replaced by the feelings of overwhelming love for the family that I have. The feelings that a body is just a body and with a little bit of hard work I can get it where I want to be. All is not lost. And it won't be. You only have one life, so kick it's ass and do what you want to do! Here's what I want to do.. realize that it's too short to worry and know that there is no wrong way to live your life. Be happy. Give love. What you come into this world with is all you leave with. Make this one count.

... on that note, I got a [new] tattoo! It's a small anchor on the outside of my inner wrist -- confusing? It's really cute, simple and feminine and I am in LOVE. An anchor is really symbolic to me, it's basically a tribute to my Grandpa. He had an anchor tattoo on his left bicep, and since he recently passed away, I wanted to pay tribute to him and get an anchor on my left arm as well. He means the world to me and every time I would see an anchor I just felt like he was trying to reach out to me, and now I can see one every day :) .. The story of getting my tattoo is pretty funny, to me anyway.. I had been talking about getting it done forever, but I never really found the time to go. One day I was heading out the door to go tanning when my husband joked that "I would probably be coming home with a tattoo.." I basically said yeah right and then realized, why the fuck not?? Again, one life -- if I want to get it done and it means something to me then why not? I headed out to the gym and tanning and on my way home came across a [recommended] tattoo shop, I popped in and was out the door with my new tattoo in about 20 minutes. I love it. I may not recommend getting a tattoo to everyone, but I am just a big believer in doing what you want, when you want -- as long as it doesn't bring harm to anyone else, go for it! Live your own life.

Maya Angelou was right.. life's a bitch, go kick it's ass! ;)

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

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Kimora. Enough said. Ok, I'll elaborate... I'm watching Kimora's Life in the fab lane and I'm falling in love with her all over again. She truly is the perfect person to base my blog off of and is everything I believe a woman should encompass. She's not shy about announcing her feelings of 'fabulosity' and how she believes everyone has the power to get in touch with their inner fabulousness. Obviously, love her! It's always good to start your morning with some motivation and since she's mine, maybe she'll come up with an audiotape of daily mantras!

Ladies, empower yourself today! And remember, as Kimora says, You are fabulous!

(be prepared for an updated post + makeup tutorial as soon as I decide to get ready..Until then, cheers!)

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Project beauty is officially established! I've been wanting to write my own blog for a long time now and I'm glad that I finally buckled down and did it! It's the beginning of the new year so why not start it by conquering wishes? I think it's fabulous. A little bit about me, I'm a mom of two boys -- 19 months and 3 months (yes, I know..) married, but as Elizabeth Taylor famously said, "I don't pretend to be an ordinary housewife.." (side note: I'll be quoting her a lot for obvious reasons). Oh, and now I'm a blogger!

In my first post I mentioned that I believe everyone is beautiful and deserves to feel beautiful, with that said, I'm very much a girl and love makeup, wearing makeup and all the fabulous things about makeup! There's nothing wrong with enhancing your features -- do what you want as long as you feel good about it. Urban decay Naked Palette - the first one, I haven't gotten my hands on the second version yet - is easily one of my favorite toys. Everyday is a new combination of colors to flaunt my mood, show where I'm going or reflect what I'm doing each day. Nothing is more fun to me than combining colors and painting my face! ( Except maybe playing legos with my boys ;) )